I haven't written anything for nearly a month - I guess that is a reflection of the fact that I don't have anything to complain about really - and I guess that's what this blog has been, mostly me complaining and writing just to get things somewhere besides in my head. I hope this blog isn't always a place of complaining for me.

We had sex last week, she really enjoyed it, and afterward proclaimed that we should have sex more often - I've been trying to convince her of that for months! I hope it happens. She also used me quite a few times as a humping post this week - I was so close to suggesting that she give me a BJ after one of her hump sessions, but I couldn't do it. This illustrates one of my biggest problems in relationships in general: I am unable to ask for what I want and to explore sex with someone without feeling embarrassed. Another example - I have told her so many times how much I want to go down on her, but she won't let me - the conversation always ends at that, and we don't talk about the true core of the matter, her lack of orgasm. I understand that she may be the type that will never orgasm, but I want to try anything and everything, and she wants to ignore it - I wish we could talk about it. We both have the day off tomorrow and I am hoping for another session of pleasurable love making for her, positive reinforcement is the key. Wish me luck.

We had sex again on Sunday - I was feeling super horny and asked her if she wanted to - and she said it was up to me, of course that's not really sexy, but it gave me the chance to take advantage of her, even if she wasn't that into it. Of course, at the time I didn't feel like I was taking advantage of her, I tried as best as I could to get her into feeling sexy, but I don't think she ever did - but I could tell she wanted to let me use her, in a way, and I did - it felt great, but afterward I felt bad about the situation because her heart wasn't into it. The past two days she has used me as a dry-humping target, but leaving me extremely turned on and aching for a BJ or a handjob and getting nothing - this is okay, because she deserves to use me whenever she wants, but I am so incredibly pumped up after one of these situations that not getting my own release is almost torture. I have been thinking a lot lately about asking her for a BJ - I have been craving one for months and months, and I don't have the courage to tell her that I miss that almost more than I do sex.

We finally had sex again! We had a long talk - I explained as well as I could that I can't go on this way, and that we need to work on this issue as much as possible. The next day we had sex - sadly it was in-a-hurry-sex because we were on the way out the door, but it was great. Now I just hope we can keep things going and not have me freak out for 3 more months before it happens again. I love her, and I love sex with her - it makes life better.

Still haven't had sex - been over 3 months now, even with a two week vacation. We need professional help, but can't afford it. She hasn't even given me a handjob in over a month - despite me telling her many times how important it is to me to maintain some level of sexuality between us. Sometimes I feel like this problem is effecting everything in my life, I get so down about it.

Last week I was so horny and while we were laying in bed I suggested as indirectly as I could that she give me a handjob - but she turned me down, twice. Maybe I was too subtle. We still haven't even come close to sex. We're done with school this week, but her period starts soon. I don't know how to break the routine.

1. Ideal amount of sex per week?

Twice a day is my favorite, so - 14 times a week would be cool.

2. Ever had an online affair?

No, but when I was single I flirted online, and met one girl that lives near me, nothing happened.

3. Are you a member of the mile high club?

I'm not, but it sounds fun.

4. Are you predjudice against any particular group of people?

I don't think I am.

5. What constitutes bad sex?

Sex where my partner isn't happy after it's over, aka, when I come too fast

Bonus: Can females ejaculate?

Yes, sorta. Do I get bonus points?

I think I might have a slight obsession with oral sex - I think about it a lot, both giving and receiving. I would really really really love a BJ right now.

I want to push you down on the bed, face first. I want to strip your clothes off, and tie your hands. I want to sit on your incredibly sexy legs and massage your back and perfectly shaped ass until I can feel the heat coming from between your thighs. I want to slowly spread your legs as I massage my way towards your dripping cunt. I want to finger your pussy slowly and forcefully, feeling your flesh pulsate around my middle finger as I press it as far as it will go into your wet and warm folds. I want to rub your clit with my thumb until you can't take it any longer, and just as your climax builds, I want to tongue your sexy ass hole while squeezing your breasts and pinching your nipples. I want to work my way down to your dripping pussy and slurp up all of your juices, tasting and drinking in your incredible sex. I want you to arch your back and stick your plump and juicy ass up in the air as I strive to tongue your clit, and continue to lap at your hole. I want you to feel my raging hard-on pressed against your leg, dripping precum uncontrollably. I want to position myself behind your waiting pussy and fuck you hard and fast with my fully engorged and completely satisfied cock. I want you to rock back against me, taking every bit of my cock into your cunt. I want to feel your pussy walls expand and contract around my dick as your heart beats faster and the pleasure builds. I want to lean forward and grab your tits, feeling your hard nipples press into the palms of my hands as I gyrate my hips, building towards your climax. I want to feel you lose control as my cock throbs deep in your tunnel, I want to feel your juices leak out and cover my balls, dripping onto the bed, forming a puddle on the sheets. I want to hug you from behind as your pleasure reaches it's height. I want to hold you as you collapse to the bed, completely satisfied. I want to lay with you, my quivering dick still deep inside you, until you begin to move your hips again, massaging my member slowly and purposfully with your juicy pussy. I want you to move slowly and methodologically as I build towards a powerful and explosive orgasm. I want to lose control deep inside you, blasting cum into your slippery and hot snatch. I want to fall asleep with my cock still gripped by your inviting pussy, cuddling together in bliss.

Why do you demand my attention and devotion, but shy away from any sexual desire I have for you and your incredibly sexy body?

Why do you tease me with playful and flirtatious behaviour, but immediately change face when I reciprocate?

Why do you tell me how much you enjoy pleasuring me, and how you don't mind satisfying my sexual urges, but you only grudgingly indulge me, and only if I ask in a very straightforward and mood-killing manner?

Why do you agree that the best way to re-ignite our sex life, and your sex drive is to spend intimate time together, in an attempt to arouse and pleasure each other, but never actually participate when the opportunity presents itself?

Why do you require my admiration and desire, but ridicule and insult yourself, and call me a liar when I compliment your amazingly entrancing and attractive figure?

Why can I not bring myself to ask you these questions that cut to the core of our relationship problems?

I have been trying in the past few days to build a foundation for us to rebuild our sexuality on - I have been initiating conversations about our sex life, in the most laid back way I know how - and I've been trying to do small things like kiss her for a few minutes at a time and nothing else. I'm not sure any of this is working or doing anything constructive, but I at least don't feel like I am standing by watching our ship sink.

Hey, I didn't realize that I had some sort of restriction on comments, but now anyone should be able to post, incase any of you non-existant readers would like to comment on anything I've written - enjoy :)

I had another wet dream last night, this dream involved lots of very pleasurable doggy-style sex with my girl. I hate masturbation and wet dreams are much better, but somehow they are less fulfilling, and they are unpredictable.

We like to cuddle very close when sleeping sometimes, and this morning I happened to be more awake and laying in bed, while she was sleepy and actually sleeping. Cuddling always turns me on a lot, so I had a very hard erection, and I really wanted to do something about it, but I didn't want to stop cuddling... These are the type of situation that I think would be perfect for sex, and in my not-quite-awake, but not sleeping mode this morning, I figured I could maybe, just maybe turn her on in her sleep, and she would wake up in the mood. I started by putting my hand on her ass under her shorts, and moved my thumb toward her vagina. I very gently and slowly rubbed my thumb over her lips, and eventually her clit - I could tell that she was getting excited in her sleep, she jerked randomly, and her pussy was getting hot and moist, but she was still asleep. Of course, doing this gets me very excited, and I started doing it faster, until she woke up. Unfortunately, she is a grumpy person in the morning, and after she woke up, she rolled over and went back to sleep, ending my fun. I've done something like this quite a few times, but she has never said anything about it - and sometimes I think that once she wakes up and realizes what I am doing, she gets mad - but I have no way of knowing. Either way, I've been sexually frustrated since this morning, and even though I masturbated shortly after to the thought of what could have been, I still don't feel fulfilled in any way.

I feel as though our sexual relationship stalled out just as it was getting started, and just as we started to *really* connect with each other non-sexually and sexually. Since that time I've just become increasingly depressed and distressed in this relationship - I don't know what to do, I feel like screaming. She doesn't know my anguish - yet she doesn't pay enough attention to me or my mood to pick up on my unhappiness. I want her. I need her. I want and need to be with her physically - there are so many things I dream about every day - kinky, non-kinky, anything and everything sexual, all things I don't get to do. I feel like dying.

I am in a sexless relationship. We have had sex once in the last 4 months - that one time lasted about a minute - can you blame me? It had been more than two months since my dick had felt pleasure such as that, and it got a little over-excited. Every day that I live in this relationship where everything is normal except our sex depresses me further. In the past few weeks, I haven't wanted to post to this blog because anytime I think about the subject matter I get angry and depressed - but I NEED to write, even if no one is reading, because this is my only way of venting the frustrations I feel in this situation. I feel like I am going to cry, my relationship is broken, but she pretends like nothing is wrong.

She gave me another handjob last night, despite the fact that she had an upset stomach all day - We were together at home all day, which is rare, and I very much appreciate her effort in being intimate with me. I would of course loved more than anything to have sex, but that would cause her pain and I knew it wasn't an option until she visits the doctor again. The downside of the whole situation is, I think it made me even hornier after she masturbated me - last night I was extrememly horny, and this morning is worse - and she's at work all day - maybe I'll get lucky again tonight.

I tried all weekend to seduce her, and I failed. We even had an official dinner date planned which she canceled. I try as hard as I can to not let this depress me - I realize that she has lots of stresses, and she may be suffering from depression and a few other problems that keep her from wanting sex, but what it really comes down to at the end of every day is my unavoidable feelings of anger, rejection, and sadness over what our relationship has become. Today marks one month since we last had sex, I think about three weeks in is when I really start to think about it too much, and can't get it off of my mind. Maybe tonight...

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I've been incredibly horny tonight, but we're both "busy" with homework - and if we weren't, she has a stomach ache, so I know she wouldn't want to have sex either way. I am incredibly depressed the past few days - I think mostly because I am distressed about our lack of sexual relationship.

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